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Saturday, December 29, 2007

From Steve

"i miss you, kasey.

I got home tonight, and everything just... sucked.

well, while i was gone, aparently i missed "one hell of a party". Everybody smoked up all of the stuff i had left from fernando's xmas present, which was most of a half o. the only person that was decent enough to ask was dj. it just seems like everyone's avoiding me... it's a very shitty feeling. i'm not pissed about the drugs, it doesnt really matter. i just feel like i got kinda ripped off hard by people i should be able to trust. a VERY shitty feeling.

i really can't wait to have you here with me in a few months. it's sad, but youre the only real friend i have right now. i'm happy that you're sticking with me through everything that's happened, good and bad. it really means alot to me, and i just wanted you to know that. you're really a great person, and you can bet your ass i'm going to do everything i can to hold on to you. youre way too good to me not to. :)

even just typing this stupid thing out helped me cheer up. you do alot of good for my sanity level. :P"

I like to keep notes on here. simply cause I'm sappy and I like to save them.

# ranting @ 9:02 AM
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Friday, December 28, 2007

fracture

Christmas present list:
Silver heart Necklace: cam
A hot dress: Jen
Books: random people
Weeds season 2 dvds and a princess peach shirt: Steve's mom
A pittsburgh Steelers shirt and body spray crap: Amanda
A C.G Jung book and the Heros of Mana for my DS: Steve

and some other random stuff

Christmas was a 12 hour shift and gingerbread cookies with the shleter kids...it was OK

# ranting @ 7:46 PM
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

I'm alive

Breaking in my new apartment and getting ready for X-mas. I actually don't care about Christmas, but Steve does and he's making me wait to open his presents.
his mother also sent me a present..apparently I'm adorable. ;)

This week has been crazy. I volunteered at the soup Kitchen and the Animal shelter. I also had to work two emergency call shifts, which are from 4-10 and 10-6. I don't mind them that much, it just fucks my sleeping schedule like crazy.

anyway, I should get some sleep.

# ranting @ 10:05 PM
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Thursday, December 13, 2007

busy bee

My new apartment is so pretty!
Newly remodeled, new floors, new paint and it even has a kick ass view.

I was really worried that I would have to go back to VA, after I told Avril (drunk old British neighbor) to go screw herself. The stupid British whore called me "white trash" for no reason. This coming from a woman who has had more Jazz musicians in her than the Cotton Club.

Whatever, I kicked it in high gear and got an awesome 600 dollar a month apartment. That includes, utilities, cable and internet..and a free washer and dryer.

so very sweeeeet!!

# ranting @ 10:57 PM
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Saturday, December 08, 2007

decemberween

I love buying people presents, it excites me!
I bought Steve Castlevania: Dracula X Chronicles, a really cool led Zep. shirt and Twizzlers (inside joke)
Another friend of mine, I bought him the second volume of "Forever Knight"..a really lame show. I tried watching the first two episodes with him, and it just bored me. I guess everyone has a guilty pleasure.

I haven't really gotten anyone else anything. I'm planning on buying my 4 yr old niece a leapfrog hand held game system. It looks pretty sweet, and she loves to learn new stuff. My nephew is definitely getting this awesome riding truck thing, I seen in a local toy store..I already have it reserved.

I don't like Christmas entirely but I like the buying stuff part :)

# ranting @ 8:50 PM
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Evans blue-Beg

There's a lit cigarette:in the hand of my new angel
she's blowing smoke like halos, and now everybody wants her
but I shouldn't even bother
because you made me so complete dear, but you left me so alone here
hang a noose for my new sinner somewhere everyone can see it

won't you beg me and then tell me how to love you
like anybody else would
I know you're risking failure (risking failure)
go run for cover (for how long)
you better start to love her so much you're moving on and on

now there's a whole wide world...that wants to know
have cheap hotels lost their turn-on? she's bathing in the neon
and she's polluting all the airways while I'm passed out in the hallway
and you left me so in love here, you left with so much hate dear
was I creating only chaos-this world lives just fine without us

won't you?

beg me and then tell me how to love you
like anybody else would
I know you're risking failure (risking failure)
go run for cover (for how long)
you better start to love her so much you're moving on and on

will it change your life if I change my mind?
when she's lit the whole wide world
I want to know if you will beg me and then tell me how to love you
like anybody else would
I know you're risking failure, (risking failure) but I'd hope you set your levels (for how long)
so you can run for cover
you better start to love her now are we this pathetic? you made me finally see it
(will it change your life when I change my mind, will it change your mind when I change my life)

go run for cover
you better fucking love her so much you're moving on
I'm so pathetic, you made me finally see it
got what you want? I'm gone

for how long? for how long? for how long will it change your life?

# ranting @ 6:48 PM
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Thursday, December 06, 2007

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep

I'm tired of being lonely.
I'm tired of being ignored.
I'm tired of carrying the worlds problems on my shoulders.
I'm just plain old exhausted.

anyone wanna give me a hug?

# ranting @ 2:24 AM
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Monday, December 03, 2007

Thanks for the update......

My sister called me this afternoon while I was at work, she left a message on the answering machine "just wanted to let you know that today mom has been dead for 9 years...call me tonight"

how morbid is that, really?! Keeping record of years someone has been dead, I mean I understand mourning and everything but I think this goes beyond that.

My sister should have been used in stem cell research.

# ranting @ 8:13 PM
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Sunday, December 02, 2007

I didn't really get up till three this afternoon, but the plumber came around noon and fixed my water line.
Thank god, peeing outside in 20 degree weather is not fun...especially when there's a possum that lives in the front yard. It's cute in a ferret with a rat tail way, and I'll let it thrive in my yard...but if it comes near me, we're going to have a problem.

on another note...

I was thinking today "Why do I even have a blogger, no one EVER reads it" but I think that's why I like it. no one can know how completely idiotic I am.
I need this blog, though. it keeps me sane, somewhat organized in thought.

Blah...I need to go to bed. I'm so exhausted

# ranting @ 9:10 PM
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Saturday, December 01, 2007

just my luck

I volunteered for the Animal Shelter's "adopt a pet day" today. It was really fun, I got to play with cats and dogs and little kids.
I didn't get my kitty because they were going pretty fast, a lot of parents were getting their kids an early Christmas present.

The past few days have been hectic, my water line broke and the plumber hasn't been here to fix it. So I have to shower at my neighbors house. Which is amusing! She spoke about the 60's and my favorite quote from her was "If you remember the 60's, you weren't really there"
I still have no water and if that stupid plumber doesn't get here tomorrow..I'm going to hunt him down and kick him in the face.
grrr.

# ranting @ 6:56 PM
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