As a human and a carrier of a vagina ;) I hate more than anything to admit that I'm wrong. Especially once I've "talked a big game" of being all strong and independent without certain someone. It's not really me admitting I'm wrong as it is me admitting I miss him.

I do miss nick a lot. I really want to write him an apology letter or something..I just want to tell him how important he was to me, and how I miss/cherish his friendship. But as of two months ago, I let him have his space... It's only fair to let him begin his new life without me. but that doesn't mean it SUCKS ANY LESS.

I don't even have the heart to refer to him as my EX. I use terms like "My friend" Or "old roommate". He's definitely more than my "ex" he used to be my best friend my confidant, the guy who did the "butt dance" to cheer me up, or make really dumb absurd comments so I could give him the "Are you high?" look.

WE have been through so much and he's helped me grow up a lot. He has no idea how much he has affected me as a person...no matter how mad or upset I am at him..I just can't turn my back, I don't have it in me to throw all those memories and private moments away.