Why can't you just hate me? make it so much easier, just tell me that I'm a horrible person and break me in pieces.
I NEED IT.
I feel terrible doing this to you, staring at your face and remembering everything you've done for me. I dreamed of you, and begged any god to help me get a decent guy...someone who loved me truly...I promised i wouldn't screw it up.
but I did
I'm so sorry. God, I hate it when you're right..
I'll never be happy, until I find myself..I cause my own misery and misfortune.
Nick, I ruined everything.