The more I talk to Steve, the harder it is to be without him.
I dream about him almost every night, I can't focus, he makes my stomach all "washing machine" like....

I hate this. I feel like all control is lost and there's nothing that can be done.
Truth is I also kinda like not having security, it's like being naked in front of a college class room on the first day.

What scares me is, how I'm going to feel when I leave him in October...It will break my heart, I know it.

He texts me when he's at work, Messages like "hey beautiful", "i love you", "I miss you bad"...
and when I get home from one of my jobs, or both..he IMs me and asks how my day was..lets me rant..and tells me how he wants to kidnap me and how bad he doesn't want me to leave.

*sigh*
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