My doodle sucks, yes. I'm better at painting than drawing. I'm bored though so sucky doodles at 5 in the morning will have to do.

I sent S a B-day present today, He told me once if he woke up next me in bed the first words would be "Pass the twizzlers". SO, I sent him a bag of Twizzlers with a note that read "Just passin' the twizzlers". RIght now, I would feel totally bad for even talking to him...but he doesn't deserve to be left hanging.

This past trip with Nick has been very insightful for the both of us. It made me realize that by flirting with the idea of being with S, I was still hurting Nick. He says he wants to know everything about me...Sometimes you just don't NEED to know. It isn't threatening our relationship anymore, and even though I miss S..nothing will become of him and I. He's just a fantasy now.

Convo Nick and I had today on Yahoo:

Nick(3/27/2006 8:58:21 PM): You know, I love you so much that it's actually incredible. I never saw myself feeling this way for someone, you know? I've had strong feelings before, but not like this.
zero_doll999 (3/27/2006 8:58:42 PM): Wow, really?
Nick(3/27/2006 8:59:19 PM): Yeah. Really.
Nick(3/27/2006 8:59:33 PM): I mean, my feelings for you are unwavering. There's no ebb, just flow.
Nick(3/27/2006 9:00:03 PM): Even when I'm annoyed with you, I'm only annoyed because I care so much for you.